MILF, GILF and Naughty Mama!

My agent name is Secret Agent Milf, or S.A.M. It dawned on me that when I get older, I will have to change my name to Secret Agent Gilf, or S.A.G.
I guess I am going to keep lying about my age until I run out of years.
Sometimes, the jokes just write themselves. 🙂
Once, I went to a swinger house party when I was trying out different social circles to find a place and people that felt comfortable for me. This one particular party, I went to the play room to see who was in there and if there was anything worth watching. The room was dim but you could see the usual bodies, writhing and slapping skin in various parts of the room and configurations of sexual contortion.
In one part of the room, there was a naked woman sitting by herself watching the people around her just as I was. Curiosity compelled me to look closer and in the dim light, I started to see that she was a much older woman. I guessed she was in her 60’s and I was completely surprised since these parties tend to self segregate by age groups and attractiveness
(Young and hot prefer to party with other young and hot folks. Average looking people will congregate with other average looking people. Middle aged folks, in all their middle aged conditions, will be found with other middle aged folks. There are exceptions but this is the general, self-selection that occurs in these social groups.)
She was watching quietly and occasionally some people would enter or leave the room and when they realized that there was a GILF in their midst, glance uncomfortably away from her and whisper among themselves. They weren’t even friendly enough to introduce themselves, they just acted embarrassed or tried to stifle giggles like adolescents.
Hot tip for wanna-be swingers: If you find yourself at a swinger party and looking around going, “Damn, these are some unattractive bodies and faces… do I really look that bad too? Here’s your answer. Are they talking to you? There’s a 50/50 chance that you are on the same attractiveness level they are, or better looking.
Are they all flocking to you as if you were the cure to poverty and unhappiness? Then you are probably attractive enough that you are in the wrong peer group or they haven’t seen a fresh face in so long that even YOUR ugly ass looks good to them.
Are some of them talking to you but an hour into the party, no one is inviting you to play? It might be that your personality is so ugly in spite of your good looks that you can’t even get laid at a swinger party. Absolute truth there.
In swinger culture, looks are appreciated (obviously) but personality is EVERYTHING because it is primarily a social group as well as a sexual playground. Most folks are already partnered so they don’t need you to satisfy them sexually. You are the topping on a lover’s sundae, not the sundae itself. You are optional, not required. Personality is everything.

There is something about the idea of folks over 60 even having sex lives that surprise us. We tend to assume that women stop being sexual after the age of 55 and men continue on like horny old goats even though their bodies refuse to agree with their image of themselves as virile 20-something year olds and perform adequately, or sometimes at all. (Which then leads us all to the same thought, if you can’t do it – why are you still pursuing it even with the predictable humiliation?)
Old people and sex. Aging bodies. The very idea of these things makes most of us uncomfortable.
And here in front of me, casually taking in the view was the embodiment of what my future might look like. I wasn’t comfortable with it either but I was more intrigued by what my body might look like at her age, and specifically her pussy. Does pussy age like the rest of our body and face does? And if it does, what does it look like?
I wasn’t going to ask her to flash her pussy for me. That seemed even more rude than the giggling and looking away the others were doing. While her presence was a surprise, there was no reason to treat her like a circus freak and I had more important reasons for being there. Specifically, getting laid and looking for the right volunteer to do it.
Later, on one of my looping visits to the play room I saw her engaged with someone much younger (he must have been in his 40’s) in a very enthusiastic missionary position. They were both clearly enjoying themselves based on the eye contact and smiles being exchanged between them. Otherwise, it was the reactions of the other people in the room passing by that were more interesting. I guess we are all supposed to stop wanting intimacy or the ability to give pleasure to other people after we pass 50 years old?
I have to admit that seeing a younger man with a GILF was definitely something I had never seen before so that challenged my own biases and preconceptions about what men find attractive and what it means to be a sexual female after 60. It was an eye opening moment in so many ways because these were volunteers, not paid actors doing this.

It would be over a decade later when I would be confronted with the awareness of GILFs. A woman would show up on my timeline who was selling online GILF content and her very public and commercial presence fascinated and challenged me to rethink my biases and assumptions.
The discomfort with women over 60 being sexual was on full display as entire waves of people under 50 would be publicly abusive and insulting to her or making her the butt of jokes at every opportunity. Since this was online, the filter between what they think and what they were willing to say was completely removed. She has amazing resilience to deal with all that and not be crushed by it. I don’t have that kind of confidence or tenacity. She is an inspiration to me in a lot of ways.
Those trolls online? You should know that those hostile expressions and judgement about someone else’s sexuality as a source of humor are exactly the kind of personalities that would go to a swinger event and find themselves alone and rejected by everyone. Not all swingers are saints but it is rare that you find an experienced, welcomed swinger that is this much of an immature asshole. Personality is everything because a polished, gold-plated turd is still just a turd. Truth.

She is back online now. Apparently Twitter gave her a hiatus and in that time, she found folks who wanted to support her cause so she has been interviewed and is famous in the UK (British and Japanese folks love older women), has a new website and a strong following of people who adore her for being who she is and sharing herself with them.
Even now, her very presence forces me to rethink what it means to be attractive to men (or women) once you enter truly mature ages (GILF age not MILF age). She looks like someone’s grandmother and you honestly expect her to hand you a home baked cookie or a hard candy at some point.
It is quite the mind-fuck when you look at GILF porn and try to process all the different thoughts and feelings you are having. I can only imagine what kind of mental acrobatics that younger folks who are looking for the very taboo female GILF sex partner experience.

We want what we want but we also live in a world where chasing after children and teenagers is seen as normal or marginally tolerable (porn types and their popularity statistics are your clue to what we secretly tolerate and want to see as possible to do) but anything involving older women or being treated like a young boy with an older woman is seen as some kind of freakish perversion that should be condemned with the same confusion as we condemn bestiality and pedophillia.
…. But fantasizing about molesting young girls with you pretending to be her father, or older… that is fine to the same people.
When we start to judge other folks for what turns them on and we know we are being irrational about it, we are showing the limitations of our sexual sophistication, and/or our deep rooted misogyny toward women that cannot be viewed as weaker, ineffective and harmless “children” by comparison to the male partner.
Fertility isn’t actually the issue of attraction here since the most common fantasies involve girls who have not completed puberty yet and therefore, not physically capable of having a safe pregnancy and delivery.
When it comes to irrational hostility and negative bias toward “mature women”, all you have to do is look and listen. This is always the case when are faced with female GILF sex, or age play where the man wants to be young in the hands of an adult female relative instead of the very tired and normalized “young girl” calling an adult male “daddy” during sexualized intimacy.
Calling some man daddy while he molests or forces you to be sexual? Totally fine to most people. But a woman past her 50’s being sexual with a younger partner? “Well that’s just sick!” They will all protest with hostility and no idea why they are so freaked out or hostile about it.
One of the great gifts of men who are not afraid of older (or heavier) female bodies is that they know real value is always about what feels good, not what looks good.
Louboutin shoes look great and are status possessions. They are also about as pleasant to walk in as wearing laying on a bed of nails at bedtime. Some people only care about the appearance of a thing. Others need to enjoy the feel of something as much as its appearance. Men who enjoy older or heavier bodies know a thing or two about what is really valuable in life when it comes to physical pleasure.

Do you enjoy mature women? Curious (in a good way) about GILFs and GILF porn? Love being the younger man at the seductive mercy of an older woman? If the answer is yes, you are in good company and there is nothing to be ashamed of.
Right now, in Japan the worlds oldest female porn star just retired after making her debut at the age of 71, Maori Tezuka. Japan’s oldest porn actress who made debut at 71 quits after 9 years | World News – Hindustan Times
The world’s oldest male porn star? Shigeo Tokuda The World’s Oldest Working AV Star is a Japanese Man | NextShark.com
We are all going to get older and if we are lucky enough, we will live long enough to actually be considered old. Sex is meant to be a celebration, an act of joy, a release from the prison of our minds and artificial moralities, and most of all, a rebellious act of defiance in the face of imminent and unpredictable death that shadows each of our lives.
We dare to celebrate life by inviting it into our arms, hearts and loins and tell death, and this awful world we live in sometimes, to just go away and fuck off for a moment. We are having a defiant moment here and sadness isn’t invited. (This is why we often find ourselves desiring sex and intimacy immediately after news of a death or attending a funeral)

If you feel the urge, see the beauty, or take comfort in a non-conventional adult body (older, heavier, muscular, hairier, whatever it is) – enjoy it. Embrace your pleasures and don’t apologize for knowing that what feels good has nothing to do with what looks good.
Old age is a privilege denied to many.
This is what they mean when they tell you “don’t waste your youth.” It was never about old age being an awful experience. It is about knowing that you get no guarantees that you will live long enough to complain about it.
If you would like to check out the GILF I am fan-girling over, you can find her here: Terrytown Gal – The GILF Of Your Dreams and Michelle-Gilf of your Dreams OnlyFans
If you would like to reach out to me, you can view my private gallery (just ask me for permission and a password): XO, Samois (morelovelessnoise.com) – go to page: “mature is sexy” under Sex and Whispers

Xo, Samois
Someday I am going to be brave enough to be on film too and when I do, it will be all her fault. LOL