He smells like manhood and selfishness. He looks at me but he sees me with his eyes, not his heart. He has not been broken enough or gained enough of value and lost to be able to do that. The gift of maturity and pain is that when we close our eyes and sit with […]

So much insomnia. So, damn much, insomnia. My mind is a prisoner of a sadistic physical trainer who insists that my thoughts run one more lap and then another until I have lost count of how many while my sight becomes as blurry and strained as the line between my sanity and the elusive sleep […]

Participation Awards. Click the image if you want to be taken to the audio host outside of this website. Click the following link if you are comfortable listening here. Total length is approximately 5 minutes. https://audio.com/yes-maam/participation-awards This is part of a serial story I am writing and right now, I think we could all use […]

Gilfs and why we love and fear our attraction to them

We are experiencing a “bomb cyclone” here in the USA and depending on where you are, how destructive and horrifying this experience will vary widely. I am fortunate enough to be safe, warm, dry and out of the path of heavy snowfall during this time and I am grateful. I was treated to seductive terms […]

They call it FTT, or brown showers, or toilet training. Sometimes, it is referred to as scat but always, it is a different experience because of the details of how every person who is interested in it wants their poop scene to go. I have only done this a couple times in my life. My […]

The quality and value of a whiskey is often measured by its years as well as its maturing products (the type of cask used for its aging process and other considerations) and absolutely by it’s rarity. The rarity is what makes it unusual and that is what makes it legions more valuable to a connoisseur. […]

A day in the life of a massage therapist. My eyesight is going. My sanity isn’t far behind. My sense of humor vacated the premises years ago, or so it seems if we were estimating this with my feelings. And like everyone else, still we plod and trod along. For the last couple months, I […]

I know someone who is normal, respectable and sees himself as an upstanding citizen of the Universe. He comes complete a with college degree, lucrative job and the much lauded respect of normal people around him. He’s the kind of person who could stand up to the threat of investigation or interrogation and proclaim, “Go […]